well, i've been busy, busy, busy. i've got tons of things to do, tons of people i wanna meet, tons of places to go. lets see.. thursday was the usual.. friday we had karaoke which was omfg funny. we sang LALA by Ashlee simpson and THE CIRCLE OF LIFE which came out in JAP. also sang songs such as Ain't no other man (wtfkinghardtosing) and Hips don't lie. like super random songs.. still was fun though. oh yea, i passed my conservation ambassador test! haha. i'm officially a volunteer at the zoo :) oh btw, the penguins at the zoo are so freakin cute okay. night out at Timbre was quite fun. got this new jacket? for 10 bucks. (yeah i need to lose weight) and also ate the peking duck pizza (godlike) sunday was fun as well. went to big sis island to celebrate kanika's sis' birthday. and off to laupasat for dinner. ate like mad the whole week. HAHA. iamsuperfatnow. and when i came home, i had to play MJ for arisa. and then get up to go to tree top walk with alvin and nach which was funny cos they're CLOSED ON MONDAYS. the one day of the week that we choose to go! haha but still walked ard and went to that tower thingy which was quite relaxing. oh and i totally didn't get any email from the TIME mag ppl. -.- they don't even leave numbers to call! are they retarded?! alright, off to cook baked pasta.
tv addict @ 3:53 PM
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
because when the wind blows, i'd feel you there.
because when the stars shine, i'll see you there.
because i can't go home without thinking of you.
because when i close my eyes, all i can see is your crooked smile.
because i can hardly feel a thing without you.
because the world doesn't matter when i'm with you.
because i don't get why you had to go.
because i can't stop thinking how this and that's changed ever since you left.
because i still remember your favourite colour. or at least the one that i assumed it was.
because i still remember what you said.
because i thought things would've turned out differently.
because i felt safe walking behind you.
because i miss waiting with you for the sun to rise.
because i know you don't care at all.
because i know i'm in this only in my head.
because i know i'm nth to you.
because i know i'll get over this someday.
because i know you gave me something to believe in.
because i know i believed a lie so obvious.
because i know you're actually as lonely as i am.
because i know you never meant a word you said.
because i know i wished for some disney fairytale ending but it never came true.
because i know you left me to write my ending by myself.
because i thought that i wasn't alone in this.
because i hear your voice in dead silence.
because you're all that i can think of when i think of christmas.
because you're all that i can think of when i think of summer.
because you left me wondering.
because i don't actually think that you did it on purpose.
because i don't know where to go from here.
because i still wait for your phone call.
because i always wish that i had a time machine just so that i could sit through the night with you again.
because i can't find anyone else who gives me butterflies in my tummy.
because i know my smiles are fake.
because i just want to hear your voice.
because so many things remind me of you.
because i confused you with someone i thought i knew.
because you had me at hello.
because i thought i had a chance.
because you made me smile.
because when i'm with you, i believe in love.
that's why i love you.
p.s. whoever it is that's reading this, pls don't ask me this and that abt who and whonot or what and whatnot. i just have smth to say, and i don't want to entertain any qns whatsoever about it. thanks.
tv addict @ 2:53 AM
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Hi,
i am at the airport, blogging with mei's baby.
i am waiting for SITEX to end so that i can go home...
well grade 5 was omfg funny.
i certainly didn't predict "where is the funk in all funked up?" to be asked. :(
i screwed my sight reading and ear test and small parts of the songs and technical :/
we'll see..
after exam, got my double pedal from zu (FINALLY!!) and went to HMV <3
got the pixie lott album <3<3
nach drove us all to ikea (getting lost halfway of course) and we ate the meatballs, chicken wings and fought over cake.
was trying to find alvin a rug for his drums but got distracted by the 'cute' little crocodile/dinosaur/some reptile which we eventually bought anyway..
headed over to alvin's but there was no carpark lot so came over to my place to have a mini disney sing-along/dancing + acoustic jamming session.
was damn tired but went for work.
so after the first day working at sitex, went to 'crash' meishan's chalet with uh.. people.
yeah.
that was quite fun.
but woke up to go to work and both of us didn't feel like working. AT ALL. (the boss was a prick and the pay sucked)
so we decided to quit.
after quitting, we went shopping at the john little sale LOL.
so instead of making money, we spent it away...
crap the plaster on my finger makes it hard to type..
so anw, i bought miki a dress and tights, myself a dress, arisa this winnie the pooh piggy bank and some other things which i can't remember...
went to kanika's new place for some indian dinner (nice)
and chatted at the swimming pool with her and nach.
came home late again.
and i had to wake up super early to go to the zoo..
omg la.
hahaha.
the zoo turned out to be quite fun.
ate ben and jerry's double scoop with ade. HAHA.
then went to cut my hair. (now i look like a man)
but the hair cut turned out to be a treat and had jack's place for dinner.
with shandy and family ofcourse :)
came home, too tired, and went to slp.
just so i could wake up early AGAIN to meet mei for breakfast before she left for taiwan..
all worth it though.
spent loads and loads of money today.
i am feeling guilty.
because i ate mac for breakfast and BK for lunch. so i have decided to skip dinner.
yeah, made a new friend, met pris and kanika,
went to john little sale. AGAIN.
bought shoes this time. hahaha.
and now, i'm alone with more than 2 hrs to kill, feeling guilty that i spent 140 bucks in 2 days O.O
hopefully the batt of mei's baby lasts longer than i expect.
class outing tmr. sigh, gotta see ms leung again.
p.s. the view from here is rather pretty.
the christmas decorations are up all over, it's the season to forget.
but i know i can't.
so i'll wait for you here, until the sun rises and morning greets me.
tv addict @ 7:40 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
hi i got a new skin.(as you can see) with a tagboard (lol) what i like about the new skin : it's black and it's white. well i do watch disney. though not playhouse disney and i sometimes watch discovery and nat geo. haahha. okay irrelevant.
i have bad news. i am fat. like seriously. i am soooo fat. i'm not even being drama or anything. i just am. and omg drum exam! i'm sooo dead la...... and OMG IT'S 1 AM? I DIDN'T REALISE! HAHAHAHAA okay nvm. that's besides the point. this whole week i'll be busy. but i can't wait for dinner with nach and alvin. though i'll probably be crying over it. as in.... yeah.... ahhh. stressed. and IT fair... hahaha. + zoo briefing. WHICH REMINDS ME. O.O i also have to fill up the NYAA. HOLY COW. SO MUCH TO DO.
BUT i did remember to draw fees and buy the 2 theory books. so good job misato! oh and course work's due on the 10th not 11th. sian......... oh well. that's life. i guess.
p.s. i love pixie lott. <3
tv addict @ 1:02 AM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
hi everyone, if there is anyone.
past few days for me have been just (as miki would say) AWESOMEZZ.
well except for when we went back to sch for lessons but what's new?
so from wed to fri i attended jap sch.
which was fun btw.
away from all the crappy teachers who only care about themselves and the school,
away from the gross uniform.
jap school was like a breath of fresh air.
i felt alive again.
the main diffrerence to me is that the teachers in jap school are actually nice.
they don't like bitch about you in front of you.
they don't scold you for the lamest shit (THE econs teacher who screamed at me over my hair like wtf?)
and although the lessons seem unproductive with all the guys talking abt random shit, they're actually serious when it comes to doing work.
the atmosphere's just different.
it reminded me of when we were in 4/4.
when the teachers were nice.
when everyone was fun but serious.
and now it's just like ew.
as in.
people are either just too serious or too unserious.
and i'm sorry i keep repeating this point but.
wtf's wrong with the AJ teachers?
seriously?
they should learn shit from jap sch teachers.
okay so i didn't go there so that i could complain more about AJ.
i did experience things that made me appreciate AJ.
i just can't remember what they were. HAHA!
so anw, jamming, talking crap, disney sing alongs and ghost stories at alvin's place with nach was fun.
i can't believe she's leaving.
i don't want her to.
i'll really miss you bud.
and maybe i'll catch up with you soon!!
oh and today i minorly burnt my hand cooking baked pasta -.-
i think tomato base tastes better than cream base though..
hmm. random.
i still got tons of things to do. (as usual)
and i can't believe coursework outline is due on the 11th!!! omg whatever happened to holidays?
drum exam on wed, omfg.
yeah, okay
i'm just typing out the random thoughts as they come.
i haven't practiced piano!!
ahhh.
and IT FAIR.
actually i kinda feel like not working...
HAHAHA.
omg la.
i'm going mad.............
okay one by one,
i shall go buy the grade 4 and 5 theory book first.
and not to forget to draw my fees out.
ahh.
one by one.
i'll have to cry you out.
tv addict @ 2:03 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
i think i have come to the point where i can no longer feel.
nothing. there's nothing. whatever i feel, feels temporary. i could feel you here for that one second and then you're gone. i'd feel happy with all these people till they're gone. and when i lie awake at night, all i have are questions, unanswered. i hardly feel you anymore. the only thing i feel these days, is exhaustion. i'm tired. of living. i have a secret to share. i think somewhere between now and then, i lost track of what i really wanted. maybe it was because i was too busy, maybe it was because people kept pushing me to something that i mentioned once or twice, maybe i just lost that spark inside of me. i feel like i'm sprinting in a long distance race. i need to slow down. but if i slow down, the world won't wait for me. i'd end up lost. but if i keep at my pace, i'd lose my soul. so either way i'd still be lost. i just want to sleep for 3 days, not having to worry about this assignment or that project or whatever homework or what CIP to do to get scholarship or passing tests or organizing things for your friends or anything. i want a break. from school, from jap. i cannot take it anymore. it's overwhelming. i can't believe i survived 9 months. i can't imagine myself doing it for another year. i am so sick and tired of this. i feel like quitting school. actually, sometimes i secretly wish that i retained just so that i can reconsider all of my options. sometimes.
tv addict @ 10:18 PM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i am in trouble. i have no idea how to do my jap presentation!!! all the kanji is giving me a headache. am i even asian?! how to start?! where to start?! :'( where's arisa when you need her?! my supposed homework day turned out to be watch youtube videos day :( i have failed as a student. although i must say sarah McLachan singing angel in the backgrd is very soothing. oh man. how how how?! i only have the first slide of my ppt done. which is, THE TITLE. how pathetic am i? i didn't even do math! OH MY GOSH LA. I AM GONNA DIE. omg joss stone is smokin hott. i absolutely love her legs. Fuck the presentation :( it's giving me a headache. ahhhh. i rather write a compo :@
